The Iceblock

5:53pm: malapit na...
ang sembreak!

pero hindi ko nararamdaman yun. bwisit talaga angtanga ko. i went to school a while ago for our makeup class in PA only to learn that the deadline for my 112 exam is today on or before 12 nn! at ang mahusay sa akin, wala akong nagawa! pakshet na buhay to. so hindi ako nakapasok dahil inisip kong gumawa nalang nun sa department. pero nalaman ko na sa thursday pa babalik si sir valero at di rin naman ako sure kung makukuha nga nya lahat ng papers namin today so...

hindi rin ako gumawa. in short, nagsayang lang ako ng pamasahe.

wah anak ng kabayo talagaaa!!!!

angweird nakakita ako ng malaking langgam na nakabaligtad pero gumagalaw dahil nagfa-flap yung wings nya...gets nyo?

anyway, so ayun. may exam pa ako sa 173 bukas tapos tatapusin ko dapat yung paper ko ngayon para mapasa ko na bukas...ibig sabihin baka hindi ako matulog ngayon at diretso na sa exam bukas. anak ng tungaw. ano ba yan...

pero sige may break naman ako dahil sa sunday ay may field trip ang department sa ek. though kinabukasan ay may exam naman ako sa PA 11; ang pinakakinasusuklaman kong subject ngayon. pakshet na prof na yan!!!!

ah bahala na. at sa october 24 ay aattend ako ng "workshop" for prerog sa reg next sem since kailangan ko yun. buti na lang SA ako.

a ewan. ang pampalubag-loob ko lang e tapos na ako sa thesis kaya wala na akong masyadong alalahanin next sem... hopefully. at saka magpapapizza si mai bukas yehey!!!

4:33pm: sighs...
That person you see just passed the board exam.

so, should i celebrate? my family seems to think of it as a big deal. of course, consider the amount of money they spent for her studies who wouldn't feel relieved after that? i bet they'd pobably skin her alive if it had been otherwise.

anyway, the sem is almost over which is both a good and bad thing. good because it means i'd be finished for my evaluations (for graduation) by that time. bad because it means the fair is just a month away which spells out work, work, and more work.

but then, thinking in advance sometimes makes me overlook those things that i still have to accomplish...(damn touchstone and portfolios...>_____<) okay so what shouls i do? i still have a few more weeks left to finish collecting five newspaper clippings, molding clay, thinking, thinking, thinking, and thinking...did i just mention thinking?

anyway, if my sister passed the board exam, i've finished my thesis (in less than a month).XP

the above statement was really something my brain told me to type but anyway, i just wish the whole sem goes smoothly.

6:00pm: Being an RA...
Masaya ako ngayon.

Pero bago ang lahat, o hayan, boom-boom pinalitan ko na ang userpic ko para sa ikasasaya ng iyong mundo. Pati sa friendster iba na rin. Ang taong iyan pala ay ang ate ko para sa inyong kaalaman (pero syempre ibabalik ko rin ang picture ni boom). At hindi konektado sa taong yan ang entry na ito.

Ngayon ang first day ng registration sa UP at dahil isa akong RA, maaga akong pumunta ng school. Before 8 ata andun na ako. Anyway, masaya ang maging RA. Mage-enlist ka ng mga taong nagngailangan ng isang certain philo subject or magca-cancel... basta masaya. Pero bago ako naging masaya, syempre depressed muna ako.

I (almost) assumed that a letter from the CSSP council signed by a number of important people from the college (meaning department chairs) would guarantee me a slot from my PA classes. Turns out, these people have their own schedule and will actually follow it. It's quite understandable but I personally think they should also consider some students who help out in the registration period. It's actually not always the case that a registration assistant gets all the subject he/she wants (like me who never got an l arch 1). Despite the assumptions that RAs can get any subject they want, these people actually do hard work to help their fellow students and the university as a whole.

So why tell someone that his/her schedule for enlistment should be on Friday? Sure, that someone appreciated the information that someone received from that college with regards to the subjects that that someone can actually take. But of course, why not try help that someone? That someone still has more work to do in the following days knowing that more students will be enlisting for their desired subjects.

Of course, I am talking about myself. Yes, what I experienced when I went to that college to enlist for any subject and ask for some information that I need. Sure, mabait yung mga tao compared sa akin (sinusungitan ko raw kasi yung mga taong pumupunta sa dep) pero I don't think you should say stuff like -meron din kaming VAAS pero di tinanggap ng *insert college*- It's not my college so why burden me with that? And to crack a joke that goes like -ganti-gantihan lang 'yan, e- does not actually help. Sure, I laughed when the person laughed but... did that person actually think I was really laughing at the joke? I could be laughing as seen from outside but...

Mabait yung person. Gusto ko nga sya... parang kwela ang dating nya. Siguro nga that joke was a way to say that the tri-coll system of the university is quite unfair for other colleges in a lighter manner but I actually sensed some sarcasm from the joke. Pero anyway, as I've said, masaya ako ngayon.

I need not take PA 11 which is a required course for almost all of the subjects however, I actually need Econ 11 as a pre-req for other subjects. I need it because I can only take two subjects without enlisting in other required courses... I needed three. Naka-set na ang utak ko na I will have to cancel Philo 113 and enroll in an Econ 11 subject then enlist in Philo 174. But, I have this thesis classmate who actually takes PA subjects like me. Sabi nya credited daw ang PA 11 as a cognate elective (tinanong nya ata sa AS 101) so now, di ko na kailangang kumuha ng Econ 11 at ang dating 2 PA subjects na ite-take ko ay pwede nang tatlo. Ang saya!

So instead of taking 15 units sa second sem, 12 units nalang! Yehey!

Kaya masaya ako!

Pero hindi rin dahil... wala pa akong grade sa thesis at soc sci 1. Kelan ko kaya malalaman kung palpak ang ginawa ko sa 199?

Pero generally speaking masaya talaga ako.

9:03am: ahahaha.... napasa ko na!
salamat pala dun sa mga nagcomment sa pinost ko kahapon. salamat talaga. alam nyo bang kakapasa ko lang ng thesis ko ngayon?>_< ayan medyo bangag pa ko. yung dating 12 pages ay naging 13 pages... pero dahil yun sa references.

a, ewan. basta yun na yun. if ever mang makakuha ako ng 5 dahil hindi maayos ang ginawa ko, i just have to do it again, right? at least sa tingin ko masprepared na akong gumawa talaga ng thesis at mas expounded (siguro) ang explanations ko sa mga arguments na pinaglalagay ko dun.

ayan so much for thesis. tapos na yun. kakain nalang ako ng chocolate. bibili ako sa mercury pagbaba ko. ay, hindi. may dala pala ako. sayang sa pera.

last saturday, i went to a "high school reunion" dun sa bahay ng isa kong high school frined. although hindi naman sya talaga as in buong class namin. actually, kaming "magbabarkada" lang ang nagganun. tapos di pa kami kumpleto. pero ayos lang. my best friend was the one who planned it so being the best friend, sinuportahan ko sya. (kaya andun ako)

nakakatuwa lang na angtagal na pala naming hindi nakakapag-usap nang matagal-tagal. marami rin akong nalamang tsismis (na pumapasok sa isang tenga at lumalabas sa kabila dahil di ako masyadong nagpe-pay attention) tungkol sa kanila. and there's this part na isa-isa kaming hahawak ng kandila (weirdly enough, hindi sinindihan so literal na may hawak kang kandila)at magbibigay ng message or whatever na gusto mong sabihin sa lahat. you can just imagine how i looked when i heard that. >_< but of course, since they've known me since high school, napredict na nila na hindi ko masyadong magugustuhan ang idea na yun. pero the good thing is they understood me. inisip ko nga kung ganito rin ba ang reaction nila if ever we did this four or five years earlier. biniro pa nga ako ng ma sira-ulo at sinabing...

friend 1: alam ko na sasabihin ni gelique
friend 2: ah, ako rin. kay friend 1 sasabihin nya good luck. kay friend 2 god bless. kay friend 3 take care. kay friend 4 mwah mwah.....

i just thought na dati siguradong may magtatampo sa akin. sasabihin na naku ayan nanaman si gelique. kj nanaman. hindi nanaman makikisama. pero ngayon, iba nga talaga ang nagagawa ng panahon.

anyway, so turn ko nang magbigay ng message pagkatapos naming kumain. and well, to tell the truth, hindi ko talaga alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko sa kanila. alam naming pare-pareho na talagang sa best friend ko lang ako close at nakiki-relate kaya kung anu-anong kalokohan ang pinagsasabi ko. i'm not even sure whether i meant what i said or not.

pero honestly, nung time na yun, nalungkot ako. nalaman ko kasi na after a year or two after grumaduate ng best friend ko, aalis na sya papuntang california. dun na raw sya kukuha ng exam tapos pag-aaralin din daw sya ng medicine. ayun. nalungkot talaga ako. iniisip ko pa lang na sobrang tagal naming hindi magkikita (maikli raw kasi ang 10 years) nalulugkot na ako. kaya yun. sinabi pa nya sakin na sumunod ka nalang sa california. syempre hiniritan ko sya na sa japan ako pupunta. di ko nasabi sa kanya pero siguro naramdaman din nya. kaya?

pero ok lang. para sa kanya rin naman yun, di ba? kung pwede nga lang palit kami, e. ako nalang ang mag-aaral ng medicine para sa kanya since gusto ko ring maging doktor (neurosurgeon, in fact). ayun...

angweird din sa bahay. when my parents talk about boyfriends, unang maiiisip nila ang ate ko at mada-drag lang ang name ko. then there's thisonetime na sinabi ng mama ko na TOMBOY raw ako sabi ng ate ko and even recalled this incident na...

ate ko: o gelique ano raw gusto mong tsinelas dyan sa mga yan? (pinakita ang isang brochure na puro tsinelas na maraming kalandian sa buhay)

ako: eto nalang. (tumuro sa flip-flops na mukhang pwede namang bilhin sa palengke) kailangan ko ng tsinelas, e.

ate ko: ayaw mo nito? maganda naman to, ha. (tumuro sa isang @$#@$@# di ko kasi ma-explain)

ako: ay, ayoko nyan. pambabae yan, e.

ayun. so does it necessarily follow nakapag nagsalita ka ng ganung bagay e tomboy ka na? pwede pero it is not always the case that....@#$^%&*

yehey nakapagpasa na ko. yun lang naman talaga ang gusto kong sabihin. >_

7:57pm: chocolates aren't a big help at all
Kinakabahan ako.....

SYEEEEEEEET~

The deadline for our thesis is tomorrow at 9 am and yet, here i am waiting for that godforsaken comment from dr. de castro.... tangina gusto ko nang umiyak. i'm not sure whether or not i'd be able to make something good out of that draft i sent him. i don't even know where to start my revisions (if there are any)... or whether i should do some minor revisions... just for the sake of doing a revision...>_< ano ba yan....

natatakot na ako ngayon...

yeah, he did give us some general comments but of course, i/we will most probably need a specific comment on certain parts of our papers that still need to be improved. tangina talaga. angsakit sa ulo...

chocolates aren't a big help at all.

sabi ng ate ko chocolates have this endorphin (whatever the spelling is) shit which is supposedly a happy... what was that again? putek. nakalimutan ko pa yung sasabihin ko. aaaarrrrghgh!!! pakshet talaga!!!!

of course i don't blame my prof. i know he's one of the busiest persons in the world... and i heard he's in japan right now... pero...>_< shit talaga...

and yeah, i was thinking why on earth am i still here wasting my time typing some insignificant set of words when i can already do my thesis...T_T

tangina talaga... lecheng real-time crs na yan...

7:41pm: at last...hopefully
Just came from a meeting that lasted for what... 6 hours? all i remember is that i have to stay up past midnight to listen and discuss cetain important things. and well, i did not actually intend to come to class today because i don't think i can listen to what ma'am chei might be lecturing about. our exam, by the way, is on thursday and yet i don't have notes or any copy of the required (not exactly) readings. so how can i pass that goddamned exam?

anyway, i don't mind that much since i'm still busy with the spare i got eversince i finished the final draft for my thesis last... sunday morning. and yeah, it was two days late 'coz it was supposed to be passed last friday. but never mind that. dr. de castro might still be busy with his lectures somewhere that i still haven't received any comment from to revise whatever it was that i have to revise.

my thesis, by the way, is only of 12 pages. not much substance... i wasn't really satisfied with my work. i found my arguments lacking and... weak. and yes, the thoughts, ideas, concepts, whatever aren't really that coherent. but at least a classmate of mine said she thought my concluding part (which was the only part she'd actually read) was good. yeah, that shit about transcendence...

at least i'm almost done with only a few more subjects to take for the next year and hopefully... i get to graduate with good grades. so next year, i can *probably* and *hopefully* give more time to AME. well, let's just see. after all, i'll be working on my elective classes... where i don't do well. where did i get the idea of taking public administrations, anyway?

so much for acads... i'm going to bed now to make up for those irregular sleeping habits i acquired and spent reading journal articles and books about fetuses and transplants and... ethics.

4:03pm: Thesis! Thesis! Thesis!
I was hoping to search for any journal from this certain person... my prof in 199 mentioned his name in his comment on my first journal report. but...for some odd reason, i can't find his first comment. nabura ko siguro. pakshet angtanga ko talaga. i haven't submitted my third journal report which was supposedly due last wednesday.

buti nalang mabait si sir deca...>.< (kahit niloloko nya ako dun sa picture kong kinuha sa 3rd floor na cr ng fc)... kilala pa nya ako as gelique. (hehe close!)

na-late din ako sa soc sci kanina and i wasn't able to get this bonus quiz ann was telling me. but then, i guess it's okay since ngayon nga lang kami talaga mineet ni sir dahil i know he's soooooo busy kasi wanted sya kung saan-saan. (ah,good luck pala sa kanya sa lahat ng bansang pupuntahan nya starting with Kenya...)i thought of changing my thesis topic a while ago while this particular classmate asked if philosophy and literature would do a great thesis. she was planning on doing a paulo coelho philosophy or something of the like. nung una, i actually thought of doing philosophy and japanese animation, specifically yung mga works ni... ano'ng name nun? basta yung mga studio ghibli or kahit isang anime lang like totoro or spirited away. naisip ko nga rin yung zettai shonen kaya nagse-search ako sa net. but then naisip ko na baka mahirapan akong maghanap ng related lit. so there,nag-stick ako sa topic kong fetal tissue transplant and the use of fetal tissues/fetuses as means to an end.

masayang gumawa ng thesis although nakakapagod. i remember last night i was about to do my third journal report but after typing the first sentence, naramdaman kong hindi ko na kaya. sobrang nahihilo ako...nung isang araw pa. muntik na ngang humampas yung mukha ko sa pinto ng kuwarto namin kahapon ng umaga sa sobrang hilo ko. it could be possible that i should do something about my health.. being low blood and all but... *sigh*

ayun. sana matapos ko sya. malapit na ang deadline ng final draft namin. sa may 18 na sya tapos syempre ipaparevise pa yun for the final paper.

go, gelique! kaya mo 'yan!

5:42pm: 1st day ng summer classes
Sa wakas, natapos din ang unang araw ng klase ng summer though I don't think I should be particularly happy about it. Dr. de Castro did not come to class this morning so what was suppposed to be 26 days of doing research for your thesis becomes 25--- even less. Fortunately, hindi naman masyadong nasayang ang pamasahe ko papuntang UP since pumasok si Ma'am Chei aka Cherrie Joy Billedo; ang taong sinusulatan ng AME kapag may kailangan sa PH 113. Hindi ko nga expected na angbata pala nya...

Anyway, this day is kinda depressing. Ngayon ko lang nalaman na may mga pre-req pala yung mga subjects na kailangan kong i-take for my cognate elective. Admittedly,it's my fault for not being responsible. Had I known that PA 11 is atually a required course for almost all of PA courses, I could have taken it earlier or... I could have taken another cognate elective (like psych?XP). Anyway, since it's already there, my envisioned 9 units for the second semester next AY will be 12, dammit, because I have to take that PA 11 so there won't be any problem (I hope). There were I think 2 or three courses that do not require that subject because the instructor's consent is okay. But then, I realized just now that I have actually taken PA 111 which requires PA 11 ONLY. But I wonder... if I talk to the professor, will they allow me totake subjects without PA 11? So there. And because my grades are not that good (especially... when was that? Second year, I guess), my GWA as computed by my fellow SAs amounts only to 1.78... 0.3 short to be cum laude.T_T

So now I'm not that sure whether I'll be graduating with honors. I just wonder if I can still make it if I do better this year... Oh, well. So much for acads.

Whatever. I actually want to wear that sablay and I hope I'll get to wear one at the end of the next academic year.

Salamat pala kay Ate Becky sa paglibre sa amin ng KFC. Angsarap talagang maging SA. Sa uulitin po!XD

5:38pm: registration finally over...
Who would think that being a registration assistant would guarantee you slots for any subject you want? Well, that was what I thought BEFORE this supposedly new and better system of CRS was implemented. I'm quite sure a lot of people are wanting to murder whoever thought of such a helldamned idea of changing the decades-old process of PILA.

It was weird, actually. I prepared myself with the manual enlistment which includes students asking for classcards, graduating students looking for this certain professor (because he/she can't graduate because prof. *insert random name* has not yet submitted the grades), documents to be received by random UPD offices, etc. Being an RA sure is tough, ne?

But I really don't think that the new reg process was that bad. (except for the priveleged slots that we RAs have) I mean, okay. UP people aren't used to that kind of system but I guess they made a mistake on informing the council about that new crap A DAY before the registration itself. Add to that the memo having approved TWO DAYS before the registration. So is that a good thing? Of course, not. They should have, at least, indformed the UP community about it earlier and I mean earlier (like months before summer reg). A fellow RA even said that they should have conducted a "mock registration". And well, you see, if they are not that confident about the capabilities of their server...*sigh*

Sana sa first sem hindi na ganito. But will they carry on with this new system? Some say they might... with a few modifications. (which reminds me of the new way to prerog...)

It's sad to think that an RA like me who works soooo~ hard doesn't get a slot he/she deserves. I didn't get any for PI 100! (that I resorted to taking Philo 199 which is Senior Research. In short, THESIS!!!!!) So I'll be expecting a busy summer. I'll TRY to refrain from watching anime or anything that might distract me from doing my thesis... I also heard that our prof will have to go to Paris before the end of summer classes... My parents don't even know I'll be doing my thesis starting next week. A big good luck to me.

Anyway, there's this problem teacher who could be dead by now if only swear words can kill. Surely a dozen people are cursing him right at this moment. Can you imagine yourself being a potential valedictorian of your class (=summa cum laude) but became disqualified just because this peice of crap did not submit your grade on time? And now, your chance of becoming a magna cum laude instead which is supposedly just glaring right in front of you but is presently soooo~ far away because of your unsubmitted grade? I really pity this student. And I think this student is my classmate... I think I'd definitely cry if I were this student and really. I might be able to kill. (so do my parents)

This student is from BA. I answered a call yesterday while I was at the philosophy department from a certain Prof. Manuel from BA. He was looking for this @$#% and well, told me the whole story about that BA student. He even said that this student is supposed to be their BEST student and recommended for summa cum laude. But well, since this @$#% is such a %#$@, the student just lost the chance to be... I've said that earlier. Ang hirap. I was the one who talked to him and tried explaining that we can't really do anything since this professor is really hard to contact.

Angkulit pa nga nung prof na yun. But of course, I understand him. It is indeed unfair for that student to be deprived of what he/she (not sure kung girl o boy pero feel ko girl sya) deserves. At kung this student is who I think he/she is, I think she/he has the chance to be a summa, alright.

Pity, pity, pity. And Prof. Manuel personally came to the department a while ago... and informed us that their dean has already talked to Dean Lee regarding this matter. But what can the dean do of the professor does not even let his presence be known to the department itself? And unluckily, there is no way to contact him. I just feel a bit auspicious that I won't be taking that @$#% next year. I'm a bit sure that I'll be able to graduate on time.

I'm glad I was able to finish enrolling today. So my class starts at 9 and ends at 1. No breaks... from thesis to soc sci 1. A big good luck indeed. I just wish I'd be able to come up with a thesis I can be proud of.

For some reason, I want to watch "Ang Cute ng Ina Mo". Umpisa pa lang daw hindi ka na makakagulapay sa katatawa. Hmmmm... I really want to laugh right now. It's a good exercise, or so I've heard. But well, laughing is good at times right?


Philosophers are not meant to be happy... they are meant to Be.

11:39pm: wala lang
Nasa SM na rin ako at nagne-net so ayan. Magu-update na rin ako. Yung te ko kasi nagpaxerox sakin ng nursing stuff nya kaya eto ako... anyway...

At long last,natapos din ang acads na yan. Akala ko mababaon na ko sa mga lecheng mga papers na yan at masa-stuck na sa utak ko ang kung anomang pinagsasabi ng mga phlosophers of science and well, Shintoism. Pero natuwa ako sa paper ko sa 150 dahil ngamit ko ang ilang pictures na kinuha ko sa scans ko ng shaman king... although hindi ko nakuha yung picture ng purification ritual dahil kay ke-to.....~~~ But still, I was able to come up with a... how many pages was it again? 10? 11? Or was it 12? Anyway, natapos ko na sya so masaya na ko... at lalo na yung take home exam namin sa 160. I actually thought I won't be able to finish it on time. (although puro crap na yung later answers ko... kulang ang 1 week to answer all those six questions with well thought-out essays! kulang yon!)

Anyway, like what I've said, tapos na yung acads. Ah, bago ko makalimutan, salamat pala sa lahat ng bumati sa akin nung birthday ko! Salamat! Nalaman kong more than 10 pala ang mga taong nakakaalala ng birthday ko... angsaya-saya ko...T^T Ayan 19 na ako kaya boboto na ako ngayong election! Yehey...

Pumunta ako ng ozine fest last Sunday. And well, I did not actually plan to help out with the goldfish booth but then I ended up doing so... *sigh* nakakaawa kasi yung taong nasa picture sa taas. Buti nalang mabait kami ni ke-to. (hehe...) Pero in fairness, natuto akong gumawa ng scoop nang medyo mabilis dahil marami palang tao na interested na manghuli ng goldfish. Nakakatuwa pa si Diane dahil nagcosplay nga sya ng arrow card kahit hindi natuloy yung group.. Pero masnatuwa ako dun sa kid cosplayer ng Conan! Wai~ angcute-cute nya sobra lalo na nung may skateboard sya! Nakailang picture kaya ako dun? Pati si Yakult may picture din ako tsaka video nang sumasayaw!

Pero thank you talaga dun sa tao sa picture sa taas dahil sya ang nagsabi sa akin na may binebentang dvd ng absolute boy sa 2rats! (medyo naghanap nga lang yung mga ate dun kasi di sila sure kung meron pa) Natapos ko na ring panoorin yun! Wai.. Wai.. Wai... ang ganda.. astig talaga. Sabi ni Ayumu (or ng tatay) yung common sense daw is only getting the common denominator... hmmm... so hindi naman talaga yun importante. At yung sinasabing battle between good and evil na halos laging theme since time immemorial, baka naman daw hindi ganun at instead ay just a half searching for its other half. Naghahanap lang daw ng other self yung isang bagay pero ang akala natin ay... tinatamad na akong mag-type. Basta gets ko yung gusto nyang sabihin. Napaka... philosophical.

Angcute din ni Wakkun!

Nakabili rin ako ng dvd ng Sugar na matagal ko nang hinahanap at saka One piece movie 7! Anggaling! Marami akong nabili nung con na yun. And I thought I'd be stucked with those scoops...

Malapit na ang reg. Buti nalang RA ulit ako. Pero weird, bakit di ko nakuha yung PI 100? Oh well, madali ko rin naman yung makukuha dahil magkaka-ID ulit ako ng RA... And that ID is so powerful if you want to enlist..^o^ Ayan enlisted ako sa soc sci 1 at si mam billedo ang prof. Sana lang magamit ko ang connections ko sa kanya kapag nagpapasign na kami ng documents sa 113 (if ever sya pa rin yung in-charge).

Don't you want to play forever?
-Wakkun

10:29am: just a few insights
Feeling ko nahimasmasan na ako from yesterday. Puro mura ata yung nalagay ko dun...

Anyway, nasa SM ako kahapon at nagre-research (while making that hell-damned SPOA). Pauwi na ako nun nung may marinig akong nanay na sinesermonan yung anak nyang to my estimates e mga 3 or 4 years old.

nanay: Ano ka ba naman lutu-lutuan nanaman yang pinabibili mo. Isanglibo yung laruan
na yun tapos lutu-lutuan lang?! Minsan naman gamitin mo yang utak mo!

Ewan ko ba pero for some reaon, I found that last statement odd. Tama bang sabihan mo ang isang bata na "gamitin ang utak" nya? Maiintindihan ba naman nya kaya yun? Kahit ilang beses mo yung sabihin, did she really think na mag-iiba ang reaction ng anak nya kapag nilagay mo sa same situation? Okay this comes from someone who does almost the same thing to her siblings pero hindi ko sinasabi sa kanila na gamitin nila ang utak nila. True, meron silang utak pero I think as a parent, she needs to let the child understand certain things like that at hindi basta hahayaan yung bata na intindihin yung mga ganun on her own. Hay naku...

Tapos kanina sa jeep walang masakyan kasi nag-strike daw yung mga manong. Buti nakasakay ako at nakarating ng UP... Pero may isang lola na sumakay nang hindi alam na puno na pala. So of course, the natural thing to do ay bumaba at maghintay ng panibagong daraan though it may take some time. Pero it seems nagmamadali si lola kaya umupo nalang siya dun sa sahig ng jeep. You would think na merong isang tao doon sa likod (nasa harap kasi ako) na magbibigay ng seat nya for her pero ayun, walang nagkusa. So andun si lola nakaupo sa sahig for quite some time. Everytime na mapapatingin ako sa salamin ng jeep, di ko maiwasang magtaka kung bakit wala man lang ni isa sa mga tao doon na nagmagandang-loob na paupuin siya.

So Filipinos have this Kantian notion of perfect and imperfect duties, too? And I have always thought Filipinos would never agree with Kant's ethical philosophy which disregards things like "pagkukusang-loob" and the like, and even categorizes it as not morally worthy. So may mga Pilipino palang Kantian na naniniwala sa perfect duty; katulad ng mga tao sa jeep... Siguro iniisip nila na sila naman ang nauna doon sa jeep at nagbayad naman sila so hindi nila problema kung wala mang maupuan yung matanda. *sigh* Kant's philosophy can sometimes be too harsh. Pero siguro depende yun sa situation. When the person is convenient enough, why would he/she do something for another na magpapahirap pa sa kanya? E maayos na nga yung kalagayan nya, e. Pag third person point of view naman, iisipin mong angsama naman ng mga taong yon. Hindi na naawa or something like that. Normally, Filipinos would take the latter side because of the kind of culture we have. Pero it seems other nations are rubbing their own cultures on us too much kaya naiimpluwensyahan na tayo.

Pero bakit ko pa ba poproblemahin yang mga ganyang bagay? E wala naman akong kinalaman dyan? (ahaha... Kantian din...) Siguro it's my job as a philosopher to think of things that other people would take for granted? Siguro... minsan you would think and contemplate on things to the point that it would bring about depression and loneliness.

Anglungkot maging philosopher, no? Shift na sa philo!


"Philosophers are never meant to be happy... I never was."
- Isidro Manuel C. Valero, philo prof

2:07am: Lecheng buhay to...
Natapos din ako sa wakas sa pagtype ng hinayupak na SPOA na yan. Kainis I certainly don't have any idea on how to make one so ayun. Nag-browse ako nang konti dun sa ibang SPOA while researching for this hell-damned 150 paper. Ni hindi ko nga pinag-isipan kung anong pinaglalagay ko dun...

TANGINA MOOOOO!!!!! MAMATAY KA NA!!!! Ay, hindi. Mali. Uulitin ko nalang.

TANGINA MOOOOO!!!!! PAPATAYIN KITAAAAAAA!!!! KAPAG NA-INCOMPLETE AKO PAPATAYIN KITA!!!!!!

To think that this insignificant bastard can do wonders like this to me... and I even prided to having my self-control and of course, my temper in check...

DAMN YOU!!!! PAPATAYIN KITAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

*sigh* But then again, when I think about the things I still have to do, it somewhat makes me forget about that... that... *walang word na makakapag-describe sa katarantaduhan nya; masmabait pa nga ang demonyo sa kanya* and DAMN HIIIIIIIIIM!!!!! Kulang ang time crisis para ma-release ko 'tong.... hatred? anger? Whatever. It doesn't matter.

PUTANGINA KANG HAYOP KAAAAAAA!!!!! PAPATAYIN KITAAAA!!!!

Must organize a squad to terminate pests like him... People shouldn't suffer just because of the likes of him who pretends to be someone he's not. Anglaki mong FAKE TARANTADO KA!

Bakit ka ba nabuhay sa mundo... this world would've been happier and better and nicer and everything without you! And so the tainted reputation of humanity is tainted and... destroyed. You don't even deserve to be called human, damn you. You should rot in hell.

Right?^-^

Anyway, enough of that damn @#*!

I still have lots of papers and exams to worry my life with... and I am currently waiting for the dreaded Philo 160 take-home exam due on 03-30. WAAAAAAAAA!!!!! Papers. papers, and more papers! That's what you get for being a Philosophy major. Read, analyze, think, criticize, write a paper (make that several papers), come up with your own philosophy... damn.

So Philosophy is toxic after all.

Just staring at my "Mga Gagawin (hehe...)" list drains my energy. Buti nalang 2:30 pa class ko bukas... ah, may exam pa pala ako sa chem 1 sa Thursday... tapos 1st 198 paper sa Friday at yung 2nd ay due sa next Friday...

Halaaaaaaa!!! So... gumagawa na naman ako ng papers sa birthday ko... How unfortunate can you be to do papers on your birthdays for the past... three years? Angsarap tuloy matulog at kalimutan lahat. Worrying won't finish anything, anyway.

Buti nalang astig yung userpic ko.

Di ba, Boom?^-^

Tarantado talaga ako, no? Haha...

10:22am: wai~
baka patayin ako ng tao na nasa picture na yan pag nakita nya to...^_^ anyway, salamat kay 'tousan sa pagbibigay sa'kin ng pic na 'to. matagal-tagal ko na rin 'tong hinihingi sa kanya, magkasama pa kami noon sa bahay...

magagalit ka ba? hindi naman di ba? ^_^

hindi pa ko natutulog... ay hindi. i've had an hour (i think) of sleep naman since i decided to take a break from reading bonjour's coherence theory of empirical knowledge. and well, i remembered i still have to write a paper about it. a reflection or sort of critique, i guess? but hell, turns out because of lack of sleep, sobrang bagal kong kumilos. alam kong mabagal talaga akong kumilos (naturally) pero iba yung effect... hu... i still have to pass this damn paper. i didn't even understand what that fucking coherentist was saying... only that i can't agree with him. anyway, the good thing about staying up all night is listening to evanescence! (hurray for amy lee!!!) but for some reason, i thought fallen was way better than, uh, what was that album again? open doors or something? anyway, i spent 375 php for that yesterday and i literally had to drag ke-to to sm. good thing pumayag sya... waaa salamat ke-to!

so what am i doing here instead of going to class? i'm late for... an hour? at hindi na ako pumapasok pag ganun. 30 minutes could be acceptable (since ganung oras naman talaga ako pumapasok sa 150) but an hour...? parang nakakabastos na ata sa prof yung ganun.

angtagal ko na palang hindi nagu-update. not that anybody would care. hindi na ako pwedeng magcosplay as snow card sa april 1. T.T whatever happened to my silence... it's me and my big mouth. i shouldn't have discussed something as trivial as a wig worth a thousand with my sister since i can't really know exactly when my parents would come in. and well, i was in the middle of saying things like i need more than a thousand to buy white hair >.<. at yun! the rest is history i don't even want to remember it. sa sobrang dami ng sinabi nakalimutan ko na yung iba. basta ang bottomline, hindi ka magcocostume. sorry sa mga kasali sa clow cards group... pero mukhang T.S.U.P.A ako sa araw na yun... (kasama si ke-to)XD

what else? umm... i bought this alias dvd for my bestfriend as a... birthday/christmas gift. but the problem is they don't have a dvd player. so what to do? since her birthday is on june 19 (pa naman) we agreed to buy one. yay! tutulungan ko syang mag-ipon para bumili ng dvd player! birthday gift naming dalawa sa sarili nya! galing no? so now i really have to work extra hard...(kailangan ko nang magduty lagi sa dep...)

anghaba na anghaba na... natutuwa ako...

i'll just pass this paper to our prof and... then what? ah, nakanino ba yung videos ng sportsfest? gusto kong makita yung sack race since hindi ako nakapunta... i was too busy calling out every saint i know and praying to every god of every religion i know just to keep me alive during that whole time! syeeet~

kahit bayaran ako ng sampung milyon hindi na ako babalik dun!

whoever said trekking is fun?

yehey. matatapos na ang sem! malapit na akong mag-thesis and hopefully, grumaduate! yehey!


"The tragic hero does not know the terrible price of solitude." -Soren Kierkegaard

11:26am: random
Galing akong UP kanina. I was supposed to pick up my ATM for my *cough* salary but then... for some reason it wasn't there yet.T_T Huuu... paano ako niyang mamimili ng...@#$*?!

Kakaasar...

Sabi ng teller baka raw sa friday. Well, sana nandun.

Ano ba yan. Sobrang random. I felt the need to do something since I'm already here in Philcoa. Ayan. Nagnet tuloy ako.

Sobrang boring sa bahay. I wanted to read Diane's 150 readings so I can write a *new* paper for our epistemology class *syeeet~ bakit kasi hindi nagtuturo yung prof???!!!* but it seems that lazy Gelique is already out from the... cave? So, bye 150 paper and chem 1 prob sets...ToT

I always have to wash the dishes and look after my younger siblings. What kind of life is that? Good thing I know how to slack off and sleep with eyes open... My only consolation would be watching Tezuka *at yung nagtataglish na Tezuka, tangina* an of course, KURAMA!*weeee!!!* Speaking of Tezuka, natanga talaga ako nung isang araw dunsa dialogue nya and with the way he delivered that line.

Ewan. Nabobo ata ako. Parang nung nakita ko yung profile nina... @#&* at *&#@. Brain drain yun promise.

Gusto kong pumunta ng divisoria...

But seriously, I hope I can change this side of me. Since new year na, nag-iisip ako ng mga New Year's resolutions ko na ewan ko kung masusunod. Isa na dun ang HINDI PAG-AABSENT na supposedly ay mag-aapply dapat for the whole sem. But due to some unavoidable circumstances... Ok na yun. Basta next year I know I should not have any. At syempre, I will not ask anyone to bake cookies knowing that someone can only make bitter cookies. Waa~ I love cookies so... hindi pwede.

And as always, PATIENCE. PATIENCE. I have always prided myself in having such long patience but lately... parang nate-test ata ako. So yun. I have to work on that. Meron pa ba? A basta. Bahala na next year.

6:04pm: drained
Katatapos lang ng trabaho ko. Sobrang (exaggeration) drained ako. Maraming customer at sabay-sabay silang umoorder...T.T Kawawa naman si gulay-san... Pero sige. Okey lang yan. Training yan para hindi ka na maging malamya.

Ah, may exam pa ko sa bio 1 at philo 111 bukas. Pero wala pa rin akong nare-review. Kasi bakit wala yung outline na supposedly ay nai-send na ni Fr. Francisco? Naku... pano kaya ako mag-aaral mamaya?

Mag-isa lang ako mamaya sa bahay. Wala si 'tousan. Magpa-practice sya somewhere para sa gig nila this October. Pupunta kaya ako? Sa 21 daw yun... naku walang pasok. That means walang PERA! Pano kaya yun...

Wala pa rin yung suweldo ko...T.T Waaa... bwisit na budget office na yan bakit late magbigay ng salary ng mga trabahador? Nagpapakahirap kaming magtrabaho... Bakit ganun?

Umuwi ako kanina para gumawa ng paper sa philo 120. Tapos pagdating ko sa bahay walang tao. Kapag sinuswerte ka nga naman! Hindi tuloy ako agad makapasok. Sobrang inisip ko pa talaga kung paano ako makakapasok ng bahay. Para akong gumagawa ng assassination plot. Pero sa awa ng Dyos, hayun nakapasok din ako. Yehey! May paper na ako about ARRANGED MARRIAGES! Buti na lang napanood ko yung ending ng Ouran (anggaling-galing ni Kyouya... *smile*). Nagkaroon ako ng idea kung anong "philosophic problem" ang gagamitan ko ng arguments... Ayan! Arranged marriages are MORAL basing from Mill's utilitarianism! Suggestion din yun ni 'tousan kaya maraming salamat 'tousan!

Ay, dadaanan ko pa pala yung tuna casserole ko sa coffee way.

9:52am: random lang
Nasa net shop ako ngayon... na-late ako ng gising for my philo 111 class. weird! na-kate ako ng gising! Sheeet... anyway, ayan. so hindi nalang ako pumasok. Siguro if ever mang i-try ko, dadating ako sa class ng... 9:30? 1 hour late hehe...

Ano pa ba? ah, last saturday pumunta ako ng l'arc con with... basta. With them. Tapos, noon ko na-realize kung gaano ka-PAPANSIN ang hipon gang na yun. I hear a lot of things about them pero syempre, since hindi ko solid na nakikita, kebs lang though medyo nakakaasar yung mga pinaggagagawa RAW nila. But last Saturday...

I must say that there will never be a bunch of losers worse than them.

Napaka-weird nila. They think they're cool when they're not. Heck, they're just a bunch of wannabe's! And that girl! Yung beast friend ni 'tousan napakalaking shit!

Feeling nya angcute-cute nya sa hitsura nyang yun. Mukha kaya siyang tanga! Kadiri talaga when I see them, I can't help but groan and say *yuck* or *eeewww* Mga goth-gothan ang putsa...

kadiri talaga. I think there's something wrong with their... uh... minds? (Do shrimps have brains? or maybe the brain is not big enough to make sense of things?) Minds... yeah. What a word to attribute to some invertebrates. Weird. I can't think of a more appropriate word. But, oh well.

It's just that they are losers who think they own the world. You think the Earth will stop moving without you? Think again. It won't. Because you're just some insignificant minute piece of crap that aren't worthy enough for even just a single space here. That being said, why don't you try studying philosophy. Maybe, just maybe, there will be something you *might* learn so you can know where your proper places are. (Saan nga ba? Ah, sa dagat! Nandun naman talaga dapat ang mga Hipon di ba? or sa lake kaya... or anywhere basta body of water!)

Kuya Charls asked me that time kung ano kaya ang iniisip ng mga parents nila when they get home wearing... or looking like... *something unspeakable and indescribable*

Hindi ko rin alam.

All I know is they all need to learn and well, perhaps know the difference between a true GOTH and a GOTH-GOTHAN.

Ne?

Grabe, Haba ng post ko. Magbabantay pa pala ako ng class ni Dr. Ocampo...

6:37am: depression er, kahapon pa yun pero...
There are just times when the most unexpected things happen to you. Sure, there are a million possibilities but then some of them are just so subtle that you would be paralyzed for a time when one of them comes. You never expected for something to happen to you but you know there are chances that it may. Okay. Maybe sometimes you do expect but when the possibility is actualized, any preparation doesn't come in handy leaving you still the victim. At the end of the day, you just find yourself asking "So what am I going to do?"

But maybe, just maybe, the best thing about being human is your ability to make sense of things. Something happens but your initial reflex is to rationalize. (I just wonder if this is true to all) If something similar occurs to you, there is something you can do about it. Yes, there is something, though you ought to be paralyzed for but a short while because you are in the midst of nothing. You are in the midst of dread. Dread as nothingness as defined by Kierkegaard. Because out of this dread, possibilities arise thouh you are still uncertain of what they are and what they could do to you. You can make choices and you should make one... in order for you to move forward.

As for me...

I have to pass the exam tomorrow and be able report on Friday.

1:58pm: nakakaasar
nandito ako ngayon sa net shop. naghihintay ng 2:30 for my work. weird, sometimes i would think of quitting the job and yet, sabi ko sa sarili ko gusto kong magtrabaho para hindi ako laging dependent sa parents ko. bait ko no?

gusto kong sumama sa siblings ko kanina sa date nila kahit na sabit lang ako. kaya lang... yung work at naisip ko... hindi ba nakakailang kung nandun ako mag-isa at kasama nila ang kanilang mga buddy? oh, well. i am solitude, right? so being along isn't new to me.

now that i think of it, i have always been alone, haven't i?

i still have that take home exam to finish but i can't understand some of the items there... hmmm... pano kaya yun? i still have 2 papers, a report, 2 exams next week... what else? am i forgetting something? *sigh* hindi pwede. dapat *medyo* organized na ako ngayon, e. i should be studying and reading those philosophers by now and proponents of management theories whoever they are.

but i'm working.

should i quit now? i'm halfway (i think) being regular... is 4o pesos enough reason for me to spare more than three hours *serving* damn high school kids? and to think 20/hr lang ang sweldo ko ngayon...

nakakaasar. naguguluhan na ako.

ako pa naman yung taong hindi naguguluhan kahit anong mangyari dahil lagi akong may back-up plan sa utak ko. lagi akong nakakapag-adjust sa mga nangyayari sa paligid ko. i always know what i have to do because everything is planned. i can always think of solutions at once. is it just me o nangangalawang na tong utak ko? tsk tsk... 18 pa lang ako ganito na ko. pano pa kaya paglaki ko when i would be totally independent? i have to pay the bills, feed myself, help my family(?)... the list goes on i can't even think of the next words to say.

pero ngayon... i'm in total darkness. bakit kaya?

naku almost 2:30 na pala. trabaho na naman...

11:48am: bangag lang...
angsakit ng ulo ng paper namin sa 114 (and yes, hanggang ngayon hindi pa ako tapos to think na bukas na yung deadline...). for some odd reason, i can't absorb anything from the readings though i've read those amn papers for like... 10 times? there must be something wrong with my brain... arg! stupid brain not functionin properly when you need it the most... at least hindi pasaway yung Adoro te devote ni Aquinas at madali syang mahanap sa net. oh, what should i do with it again? uh... *thinks* oh, right. eidetic and transcendental reduction. what were those two again? shit.

must watch GMA's SONA. but... damn. walang tv sa apartment! pano na yung discussion tomorrow sa PA? bibili ng newspaper? ano ba yan...

ah, may work pala ako tomorrow. and, well, i have to deal again with a bunch of high school kids. but i heard na-office daw yung iba sa kanila dahil... for some reason pinagbawalan sila ng school admin na "tumambay" dun sa coffee shop? naku. sayang kikitain namin... pero bawas naman sa ingay... *silently yells yatta*

what else do i have to do again? mus watch Yentl and write a paper again... ay, haven't been to an adoration chapel! saan ba ako makakakita nun? ano ba yan... kamalas-malasan. but anyway, would my prof know that i did not go to one? at least i know what's in an adoration chapel (or si i've heard with that blessed sacrament and all...) tapos... what else? oh, right! the midterm exam in 195. kaasar yung subject na yun wala naman akong natututunan. malapit na rin yung isa kong report. ano pa ba? oh, well.

is it just me or the new batch of applicants are kinda weird? parang karamihan sa kanila mga 'kebs'. not that i seek their attention... (that's not my MAJOR and DEPARTMENT) but, oh well. i should've known. it was also like this the previous year so maybe i shouldn't expect much. i would often sit on ajo and observe what i can from there and it seems that i have seen the same thing. well, not exactly. it seems to me that even the applicants themselves do not like to speak to their co-apps. weird, isn't it? to think that they're a batch, they should be close enough by now. (ano nga ba yung sa Fourno dati? ganito ba kami?)

may magsasabi nanaman ba na scary kami? or hindi approachable? or... anything of the like? o wala lang talaga silang pakialam? okay lang. it's not our loss. sila rin naman ang maapektuhan ng mga ginagawa nila. sana lang talaga yung mga ipapasang applicants ay yung mga deserving na mag-pass at hindi yung mga akala mo nagtatrabaho at deserving kasi laging nasa tambayan. sana kahit hindi masyadong nakakapagpakita yung applicant basta alam ng mga tao na nagtatrabaho e ayos lang. sana... puro sana. e hindi naman nagyayari.

i just wish people would expand their senses and be able to see the whole picture and not just a part of it (especially the part that they would most likely want to see... based from previous experiences) and that no one would say that he/she/it failed the person because he/she/it did not feel him/her/it as an applicant or he/she/it passed an applicant just because the person said that he/she/it is willing to work for the org.

anyone can say that to your face unblinking.

yun lang. naku, uber haba pala nitong pinost ko. nagsimula lang sa 114... sigh.

bamgag lang talaga ako ngayon...

aba, nakita ko ang aking tovarash... gotta say... muwah? hi? hello?

7:06am: wala lang
wala naman talaga akong gustong sabihin. ay, teka... meron pala. malungkot ako kasi nawala na sakin si Melas... parang nung summer ko lang siya nakuha tapos ngayong june... siguro malas lang talaga ako. er, does that mean i was destined not to have or own any phone? sad naman ng life ko. pero for practical reasons lang naman kaya gusto ko ng phone... pero hindi na bale. maybe it was for the better. kesa naman yung digicam ni sibling yung nakuha. maybe i would've stopped breathing by now. right?

naghahanap ako ng assignment sa 120. saan ko kaya yun mahahagilap? tapos yung readings namin na hindi ko nakuha wala pa pala sa main lib. kainis yun. sabi sa OPAC on shelf daw tapos sabi ng SA under processing pa raw so wala pa doon. *sigh* mga may sayad talaga...

naku buti naalala ko. bibili pala ako ng maggi savor. anong flavor kaya? calamnsi o garlic? pareho nalang kaya? *sigh... such randomness*

ano pa ba? ah, malapit nang umalis si sir perez kaya malapit na akong magbakasyon sa 195 for... 6 meetings? anyway, malapit na exam namin sa 111... PA. kaso wala naman akong naintindihan. anak ng... baka bumagsak ako. ah, hindi pwede...

natapos ko na yung Blood and Gold. (maraming salamat, tovarash!) kahit medyo ganun si Marius, ayos lang! i still like him! iba kasi yung way ng pag-present sa kanya ni Armand... so it was still better to have him talk about his own self. sure, he wasn't perfect after all but who cares? he's still Marius. Marius is Marius (except when he's angry... sabi nya yun). pero angsad ng lovelife nya. lagi nalang syang iniiwanan... hindi bale, Marius! (hah! close kami... yeah, right) that SHOULD mean you were destined to be with ME (Solitude speaking...^^)! tama, di ba? i've been his constant companion for like... centuries? haha... we're close, Marius. we ARE close.

teka nababangag na ako... kailangan ko yatang humingi ng cocaine kay itay... nasan ba yung syringe? *hahanapin si Sherlock Holmes*

yun lang.

"Come down with me then. There are a crowd of them, these crafty Florentines. Oh, but I am so hungry. I have starved myself for a night such as this."
-Marius de Romanus to Amadeo, The Vampire Armand

8:22am: tango
malas ako sa partner ko nun sa exam namin. hindi niya ma-gets yung isang figure... pero hindi ko rin ma-gets kung bakit pareho kami ng grade... *sigh* ako na nga tong nagli-lead sa kanya kasi she doesn't know when to stop and what direction to face pag umiikot-ikot na kami.

hm... bitter lang siguro ako. kasi naman kabisado ko yung figures at nagawa ko naman nang maayos (i think XD) yung dance though may ilan akong mistakes na dahil sa kanya. nadi-distract ako kasi hindi nga nya alam... masyado syang dependent sakin nun tapos...

PAREHO KAMI NG GRADE???!!!

Hindi naman daw necessary na pareho ng grade ang magpartner. e bakit ganun? *mutter mutter* asar talaga yung tango pa namn ang easiest na tinuro sa'min... kung ganito yung grade ko dun, pano pa kaya sa boogie? *shivers* angbilis-bilis pa naman nun... sobrang hindi siya pwede para sa Genki club kaya... BANNED na ang boogie na yan sa'min. di ba Genki club?

ah, salamat pala kay ate mikai dun sa cds. ty po! at kay d at lani... at sa lahat ng Ended... at kay ann... basta. magpapasalamat nalang ako sa inyo sa utak ko.^^

7:50am: share desu
sumabay ako kanina (ulit) sa aking ama papuntang school. and because i wasn't so sure kung pinayagan na ba talaga nila akong lumipat ng bahay, i pressed on the matter again and well, closely observed his reactions with every statement i dropped. however, it was FINALLY (I think) confirmed na lilipat na ko ng boarding house. before we went on our separate ways, i asked if i should tell the landlady (or papakausap ko pala sa mga kasama ko...^^) na lilipat na nga ako doon. ayan, pumayag siya! *kyaaan.... (Genki Club fangirl mode)*

practical exam namin sa tango mamaya... papasa kaya ako? naku, tovarashi, sayang yung chance na ma-uno mo yung exam (since sabi mo nga ito yung pinakanadadalian kang sayaw...) oh anyway, not that we'd fail the subject, right?

yun lang...

"Be frank with me and we may do some good. Play tricks with me, nad I'll crush you."
-Sherlock Holmes spoken to Capt. Crocker, The Adventure of the Abbey Grange, The Memoirs of Sherlock Holmes

**la lang, gusto ko lang i-share. anong masasabi nyo? napakaseme ni Holmes, no? hehe...**

1:43pm: aba, anggaling...
Masaya ako. Yes, I'm happy kahit hindi halata...^^ bakit? wala lang... who wouldn't be happy e ikaw ba naman makapasa ng exam mo na er, pinaghirapan(?) mong... er, pag-aralan. (naisip ko lang wala yatang term na "reviewhin") at saka nakapagpa-print na kami ng screenshots nina radu at ion. ayan, we have pictures...^^ pampatahi na lang ng costume...OTL (salamat pala sa mga tao at natutunan ko rin kung ano yang OTL na yan...)

yung part na sasayawin ko sa tango is male... bakit kaya? mukha ba 'kong lalaki? (haharap sa salamin) er, actually ayos lang. ayoko lang sa part na yun is the male should lead his (at sa case ko, her)partner. ayan, yung partner ko pa nagkakamali... nagmamadali kasi siya. good thing the steps weren't so complicated at madaling ma-gets.

what else? ah, right. sa wakas member na ko ng yahoo grouops namin sa social dance! (hahaha...) at nakita ko na grade ko! ayos lang... i'm not expecting a flat 1.0 kasi alam kong di ako gifted sa ganyang mga stuff...

wala na...

5:01pm: ano ba yan...
Kasalanan ba ang magkaroon ng small handwriting? *stab stab* Ayan, hindi ako napadalhan ng invitation sa yahoo groups ng prof namin dahil hindi raw nya mabasa ang sulat ko... *sniff*

oh, anyway, gotta practice those dance steps... chacha dance steps *shiver shiver* nagkakamali ako pero... gets naman natin, di ba, d? *smile*

basta, natatakot ako kay kuya este, sir kapag bigla na lang siyang nangingidnap ng girl para magdemo ng next figure. waaa... bakit hindi na lang siya magsayaw at magdemo mag-isa?

Ayan, boom! maraming salamat sa pagwelcome sa akin... er... sa lj... *...* kaw talaga, mahal na mahal mo talaga ako... *hehe* yung guy na sinasabi nila, gusto ko siyang makita. wala lamg. para ma-bash ko rin sya. pero hindi naman kita aasarin! mukha kasi kayong tuwang-tuwa. oo nga. masaya nga yata. mahal kita, UKE-san!!!^^

Waa, ann-tenshi! sori talaga baka hindi ako makapunta sa ga... pero yun nga try ko pa rin.^^

koori-chan out

9:34am: *sigh*
Nakakaasar ung smart... oo yung fon company... lagi nalang silang nagse-send ng mga ring tones na... er, how should i put it? basta. unexplainable. angmahal pa naman nun... kainis talaga.... di ko pa nga nagagamit ung lod ko nabawasan na agad! buti nalang marami-rami ung nilagay ko...

hah! ayos lang! hindi bale!

pero naiinis pa rin ako.

nonsense tong post ko pero...

anak ng... naiinis talaga ako! *nagyelo ang lugar na pinagtataypan ni koori-chan*